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I was using some of the same organizing techniques for the group that I had used most of my life to get away from and protect myself against the pains of chaos in my own life.

So how could I go from feeling my connection to the Pathwork Guide and so much passion about Life as shared in my previous post to feeling I was going crazy?

I took this discernment into meditation. “What are my deepest desires?” The answers that came startled me, and they came quickly.

I listen. At first I do not realize what is happening. The conversation, some light, some profoundly deep, feels increasingly sacred as I slowly realize what is happening.

I say I long for love, for connecting, but at the same time my ego wants to stay in tight control, not wanting to surrender to what true spontaneous opening of my heart to another might be like.

Why the dis-ease with the topic of Jesus Christ? Mostly I suppose because all of my years of church life did not encourage, or sometimes even allow, independent thinking on the subject and person of Jesus Christ.

Our monthly Sevenaks Helper Community conference call last night was a lesson in friendship, no, more than that, an experience of friendship.

I seem fine with helping out in administrative activities…And yet when I get involved in this hands-on work of Pathwork, I love much of the engagement with students.

I realize that I am active in our Mid-Atlantic Pathwork community at Sevenoaks. But am I really in leadership there? Part of me, a young part, denies that I am…

I see this young streak in me that wants what he wants when he wants it and disregards the world of the other.