Gary's Blog

I am not drawn to this debate, nor do I sense that I have the mental apparatus to engage in such debates. What I am increasingly drawn to, however, is the man Einstein, his philosophy of life and of the Cosmos.

More than ever, we are jumping into the abyss that we have feared our entire life. And it really does take time to get to this point because of the magnitude of the change required, or rather, the change that seems to happen in us organically as we do our spiritual work over time, over our entire life. It is an experientially felt sense that changes one’s fundamental stance toward life.

This all has a feel of moving off the shore into the sea of Life – a real letting go, saying goodbye to the old “US,” the parts of us that were and still are distorted.

…both of us had been in a crazy overload this past week, especially the last three days. AND we were not aware of the degree of overwhelm until we sat there looking at each other in the classroom, staring into each other’s eyes.

I found that I was experiencing joy simply in coming to awareness of what goes on in me. This joy is in contrast to being caught up by and in the dis-ease and malaise.

So with such a grand “Oh so Wonderful Day,” why did I actually miss the experience of pleasure during most of this day?

It was good to bring this to consciousness. This coffee time IS our spiritual practice.

Here was an opportunity to look at what was going on in me that would cause an inconsequential incident to give rise to so much anger.

I long for more happiness in my life, and yet my “good” is not giving me sustaining happiness and my “bad” seems to cloud over whatever good might be there.

But I am up well before dawn, so something disturbs me.