Gary's Blog

I am experiencing the abundant life on one level while, on another level and at the same time, I am still in my bitterness and resentment.

…groups are an interesting phenomenon, and they have always been an important part of my life for whatever reason.

Looking at my life and all the richness that has filled it I am quite amazed that this morning, when I let things settle down, I become aware that so much of my life has been painted against a backdrop of malaise, or sadness.

Let me further explore my own origins of bitterness, places where I gave up on life and on what I longed for in life and used my “giving up” to prove my case of victimhood and my belief that I would never get what I most longed for in life.

My Helper Session with Moira Shaw – Thursday 11/29/12 — Shared in honor of the wisdom that came through this session – like honoring a dream by writing it out; AND shared in love – Gary

…what am I longing for? This morning what arises is that I am longing to be fully incarnated in my body – to sense all my sensations and to feel all my feelings and emotions.

What first arose as a cause was that my depression had as its source my sense of not serving a cause greater than myself.

A Profound “Take-Away” for me from the first session of Erena’s Graduate Program

My Presenting “Beautiful Problem” – Awareness of my fear of being ME, in leadership, in relationship with Pat and others in my life, in life itself

I was particularly helped in looking at my evolving meditation process.